|The following article is a part of Mr. Azad Moradin’s article ” My personal Statement’, which was published on a few websites such as Wikipedia, Iranian.com, academia, as well as on the old vokradio website in December 2005.
December 10, 2005
by: Azad Moradian
It’s so fascinating to look back and realize how much of my present and future is shaped by my past experiences, and how much of my perception is either expanded or limited by those events. It’s quite interesting to realize how much of my understanding of myself and the world, how much of my goals and ambitions are formed through the bases of my existence; my mother’s womb, my unidentified homeland, my belittled ethnicity, all the places I was raised and taught, and the most gripping moments that have defined who I am today and who I wish to be tomorrow. It is my history and background, my triumphs and tragedies, my accomplishments and losses, and the endless checklist of hopes and dreams that never seem to seize, which has painted the vivid picture that I envision to be my future.
What I have chosen to study and educate myself in, what I have chosen to devote my life to is a direct result of the journey I have paved to be where I am today. Knowing myself as a Kurd, one out of the thirty-five million people who have no place to call home, no rights to speak by their sweet mother’s tongue, no chance to celebrate their rich culture and heritage, has indeed played a big part in how I have lived my life and how I want to continue to live. In many ways, too often I was not given a choice, for one never chooses to come to life and be bashed for being alive, one never chooses to be born and be sentenced to a life full of fear and prosecution. However, today I do have a choice, so I choose to dedicate my life to the development of understanding of the human existence.
Growing up in an extensive family system with multiple siblings and grandparents, speaking one language at home, and being forced to study in another at school, being raised in an era of struggle and war, put down by others for the mere fact that I am a Kurd, becoming intrigued by political movements and revolution, I came to see much of the complexity of the world. Not much fairness is practiced in the chaotic atmosphere of a third world country, especially in the case of people who have no right to be known. In an uneducated system, with little resources for advancement, I was among a growing population of enthusiastic youth, who were fighting for reform and change.
Throughout my childhood a distinct goal became rooted in me that has since only grown. That goal is to help my fellow people and have a positive impact in their lives; to somehow lessen the heavy burden that they must carry. From the early years of my youth I came to realize that there was much need for the care of the human mind, for I saw how fragile the human sanity could be. I witnessed how easily a strong grown man can be emotionally and mentally paralyzed by the loss of a child, and how dysfunctional a bombarded society can become. In a land where the fundamental needs of a human being is not met, where filling an empty stomach is a struggle, not much thought is given to the mental health. Although it was often apparent that the essence of the crippled community was in its inability to cope and overcome grief, not too many allowed to pinpoint the need for psychological assistance. Perhaps the awareness of such a need was one of the major reasons why I chose to study psychology. My own motivation to overcome the continuous traumas and losses of my early adulthood, gave me a better understanding of how I could make a difference in my people’s lives.
I joined the political movement at a very young age and this involvement in politics took me through a series of life altering events and painful experiences. The essence behind the political movement was to fight towards human rights and equality, which fed my desire to help others. The psychological damage that imprisonment, prosecution, torture and the domination of fear had on the development of my family and friends were undeniable. It never escaped me to notice the changes each individual went through within the process of injustice and how much help they needed to be able to stand on their feet once again.